Musings: I am me, my inflated Ego!

Please read my previous blog (Musings on Friendship before this @ http://ragsgopalan.blogspot.com/2009/05/my-best-friend-my-inflated-ego.html before reading this sequel / part 2.

What is a friend?
A friend is a farmer (tilling our barren mind) & a reformer
Sometimes as brother, sometimes as bouncer
Many times our banner, yet a fine balancer
Not like a master, yet a catalyst for the learner!
Above all for me a friend is a teacher!

Yes, my friend is a teacher helping me to learn the lessons of life!
Yes, my friend is a teacher helping me to learn the essence of life!

Just as I kept thinking, stranger things I am discovering!
Who is my best friend? Who teaches me the best lessons in life?

Who is my best friend?
I am me, I am my inflated ego!
My ego begets desire, desire begets discontentment!
My discontentment begets greed, greed begets possessiveness!
My possessiveness begets jealousy, jealousy begets anger!
My anger begets enemies, enemies beget rivalry!
My rivalries beget success, rivalries beget failures!

My rivalries beget success, success begets pride!
My pride fuels ego, Alas! Success fuels ego!

My rivalries beget failures, failures beget experience!
My experience begets lessons, lessons belittle my ego!

Yo! I have found a friend in my failures!
Yo! I have found a friend in my failures!

For failures begets lessons than a thousand wins!
A lesson in humility, a lesson in contentment
For failures,
Keeping me young and swift of foot!
Presenting me my scarce solitude!
Awarding me my austere aloofness!
Revealing to me my deathless courage!
Withering my laurels at Wuthering heights!
Allowing me to learn at my own pace!

In life,“Where am I?” is the product of my success
“What am I?” is the result of my failure
For I keen to know “What am I?” than ‘Where am I?”
I adore my failures, my inflated ego!
For failures spring from my inflated ego!
I am me, my inflated ego!

Hurrah! I have identified my best friend, in my inflated ego!
I am me, my inflated ego!


Happy reading!

Musings on Friendship...

A true friendship is,
Hard to gain, Easy to sustain
Like an insurance in life for the good times to rain
Having a true partner in pain and gain
Avoiding a life that’s living in vain

In a true friendship,
It’s connecting to another ignoring the race
Living your life at your own pace
It’s not always the smile on the face
But it’s here & now, how both hearts embrace

For a true friendship,
I never think twice to pay any price
To beget a friend so wise,
Who always shuns his disgrace!
Yet prefers his than my disgrace!

For a bad friendship is
Easy to gain, Hard to sustain!
I shun the thoughts that depress my heart
He isn’t my friend at misfortune who depart
“Friends”, betraying me at the ruins brink
Burning my heart whenever I think
For a bad friendship is
Easy to gain, Hard to sustain!

In a true friendship,
It’s not just to pair up for easy deeds
But to hit and correct me when faults exceeds
A bond in amity is a liberty from bonds
For I can be “me” sans my “personality brands”

What is a friend?
A friend is a farmer & a reformer
Sometimes as brother, sometimes as bouncer
Many times our banner, yet a fine balancer
Not like a master, yet a catalyst for the learner!
Above all for me a friend is a teacher

Yes, my friend is a teacher helping me to learn the lessons of life!
Yes, my friend is a teacher helping me to learn the essence of life!

Happy reading!


PS:
1. Based on the feedback from my friends / regular blog visitors that the blogs are too long for their attention span, i have split this into 2 parts. The flow has not changed, but guess it accomodates the attention span.

2. If some of you are wondering that some concepts above are familiar (esp. those who have read Thirukural) then you are right, few lines are direct translation of the couplets in my own words.

For my eyes are jealous of my heart!

This small piece is self explanatory and can be considered as "Rumblings of a friend in solitude".

Time wounds all heels before
Time heals all wounds!
The former came uninvited
The latter is hiding unintended

A victim of her ego with
Silence as her shield
She locked herself in a cage
Despite being smart enough to recognize this stage

A victim of his ego!
Does not know where to go!
His exasperations so true
Alas, persuasion isn’t his virtue

Her shield is her weapon
A curse he bequeathed upon
Her weapon so sharp
Making it a no exit trap!

A life so ecstatic
Shattered by a silence so static
A frozen friendship so artic
With the chillness of Antarctic

How do I explain that? Never
post the opera, behave like a black spider!
Climbing the height of conceit, wont make you a winner!
For I am a tree lover despite being a wood pecker!!

She has been close to my heart
Yet far from my eyes!
How can I help my eyes for being far?
For how can i help my eyes for its jealous of my heart!
For how can i help my eyes for its jealous of my heart!!

Happy reading!

Yours rumblingly!