Musings: I am me, my inflated Ego!

Please read my previous blog (Musings on Friendship before this @ http://ragsgopalan.blogspot.com/2009/05/my-best-friend-my-inflated-ego.html before reading this sequel / part 2.

What is a friend?
A friend is a farmer (tilling our barren mind) & a reformer
Sometimes as brother, sometimes as bouncer
Many times our banner, yet a fine balancer
Not like a master, yet a catalyst for the learner!
Above all for me a friend is a teacher!

Yes, my friend is a teacher helping me to learn the lessons of life!
Yes, my friend is a teacher helping me to learn the essence of life!

Just as I kept thinking, stranger things I am discovering!
Who is my best friend? Who teaches me the best lessons in life?

Who is my best friend?
I am me, I am my inflated ego!
My ego begets desire, desire begets discontentment!
My discontentment begets greed, greed begets possessiveness!
My possessiveness begets jealousy, jealousy begets anger!
My anger begets enemies, enemies beget rivalry!
My rivalries beget success, rivalries beget failures!

My rivalries beget success, success begets pride!
My pride fuels ego, Alas! Success fuels ego!

My rivalries beget failures, failures beget experience!
My experience begets lessons, lessons belittle my ego!

Yo! I have found a friend in my failures!
Yo! I have found a friend in my failures!

For failures begets lessons than a thousand wins!
A lesson in humility, a lesson in contentment
For failures,
Keeping me young and swift of foot!
Presenting me my scarce solitude!
Awarding me my austere aloofness!
Revealing to me my deathless courage!
Withering my laurels at Wuthering heights!
Allowing me to learn at my own pace!

In life,“Where am I?” is the product of my success
“What am I?” is the result of my failure
For I keen to know “What am I?” than ‘Where am I?”
I adore my failures, my inflated ego!
For failures spring from my inflated ego!
I am me, my inflated ego!

Hurrah! I have identified my best friend, in my inflated ego!
I am me, my inflated ego!


Happy reading!

Musings: Individuality Vs Personality!

In a day of life!
Birth is dawn!
Adolescence is morning!
Prime time is day!
Love in life is evening!
Old age is night!
Death is midnight!

For I bought a mirror
In the morning
Unknowingly pledging something valuable
Which I don’t know what it is!
I carry this mirror
To see the world
From morning to midnight
This mirrors reflects and tells me
What my world is!
What my life is!
Even, telling me, what I am, which I am not!

Mind is this mirror
It shows my personality!
It hides my individuality!
What the world thinks of me is my personality
What I am naturally is my individuality
Roots of the mind are in the society
Roots of the personality are in the mind
For, personality is the extension of the mind
As mind is the extension of the society
I realize mind and Personality are social phenomenon
I realize mind and Personality are dependent phenomenon
I realize personality is no different from a spectacle
For they both are in the eyes of the beholder

But do I realize what did I pledge?
Did I pledge something valuable?
I faintly realize that I pledged my individuality!
But do I know my individuality?
If I think I do, I don’t
If I think I don’t, I still don’t
If I feel I do, I do
If I feel I don’t, I don’t

It’s been a life all along
To live it for the society
To keep up my personality
To keep up what I am not
It’s been a life all along
Ignoring my individuality!
Ignoring my uniqueness!
Ignoring my sexuality!
Ignoring my sensuality!
Ignoring my nature!
Ignoring my consciousness!

Little did I realize that, it’s all been
Personality masquerading as individuality
Long term pain masquerading as short term pleasure
Your thoughts masquerading as mine

Little did I realize
That a trip in ego is a one way trip
That a trip in ego is a never ending trip

I can’t throw this mirror
As it’s whole of my interior
As I start growing wiser
I shall slowly stop being an actor

A smith removes the flaws from silver
Slowly, one by one, carefully
I am smith and the flaws are in my thoughts
I have decided to ignore
Slowly, one by one, carefully
I shall stop being an actor
Slowly, in one by one, carefully
I have decided to discover
Slowly and carefully!

I faintly realize but strongly believe
I don’t have to invent my individuality!
I just have to ignore my personality!
To discover my individuality!


Happy reading!